IT’S 12:45 AND I’M EDITING CAPS AND MY ROOMMATE IS ASLEEP AND I’M LEGITIMATELY ABOUT TO CRY RIGHT NOW BECAUSE LOOK AT HER FACE
SHE LOVED HIM
#AND IT WAS TWISTED AND FUELED BY LUCIFER AND AND ALL SORTS OF THINGS BUT SHE WANTED WHAT SHE THOUGHT WAS BEST FOR HIM #THEY WERE GOING TO SAVE THE WORLD
#imagine that you met jesus #as a religious person #cause that was what sam was to ruby #he was both man and god (him and lucifer were just flipsides of the same coin) #and he is your only hope #he is your saviour #he is the name you balanced on your tongue when you prayed through dark nights #imagine he meant as much to you as jesus to a christian #and imagine he was…disapointing #very very human #whiny and stubborn and always blaming everyone else #and you’re devastated because he should be your lord and saviour and king #and he can’t even stand up to his brother without sneaking around #but he’s also sweet #he always picks up the bill for french fries #and you have movie nights together #and sometimes you relax and forget about your faith #and just enjoy him in his imperfection #imagine you fell IN love with this saviour #he represents your salvation as a flawed imperfect being #and also just the imperfect person you are utterly head over heels for #and you know he won’t be happy when he finds out what you did for your faith #but you hope and pray and seek counsel with those who know better than you #the one who believed longer and harder #and you just hope that maybe he’ll forgive #like a saviour should #this is what sam meant to ruby #this is the depth of emotion he would have inspired in her (via theplanetmidnight)
Sam’s pretty sure this wasn’t what the authors of the twelve step program meant. He’s also pretty sure he doesn’t care.
3512 words, rated R for discussion of addiction and suicide.
revelation had such a perfect ending
why did S9 have to happen
In which Dean Winchester has a hard time saying “I love you.”
